Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Shelach - lo taturu

Parsha Shelach starts with the sin of spies, who bring negative report about Eretz Israel, provoking people to despair about the possibility of entering the land, wishing to turn their backs to go back to Mizraim, and ends with the commandment lo taturu… "not explore after your heart and after your eyes, after which you stray".

If we think of it, the commandment lo taturu is very harsh.  How can one not follow one’s heart?  How can a human being not feel, how do you not explore your emotions, not think about what you are feeling? 



13:27 We came to the land you sent us to, it does indeed flow with milk and honey, and this is its fruit.  13:28 However, the people who inhabit the country are powerful, and the cities are fortified and very large… 13:32… The land that we traversed and scouted is a land that devours its inhabitants … 13:33 … and we looked like grasshoppers to ourselves, and so we must have looked to them.

If I were to draw a loose and far fetched connection between the sin of the spies and the commandment lo taturu,  the bad report about the promised land may be compared with the negative opinion people form in their youth about virtuous life and conventional marriage, based on the ‘well-meaning’ advice of skeptics, as well as examples.  A virtuous hard working mother, unloved and scorned by the philandering father.  Nice Jewish boys chasing after non-so-nice, not-so-virtuous girls.  Teachers who saw it all, assuring that there will be no creativity beyond the kitchen walls of the marriage castle, who tell you that your personality will be ruined and dissolved to fit the mold – “a land that devours its inhabitants”. 

The soul wanders through the desert in despair and disbelief, bowing to idols of its own making, pretending, painting itself attractive to the skeptics and sinners, trying to survive in the wilderness, to fit in, to accommodate.  14:20 Salachti kidvarecha I have forgiven as you have asked.  But you will not enter the land, only your children. 

With a poignant heartache we read 15:2 Ki tavou el eretz moshvoteichem When you will come to the Land of your dwelling places …  15:18 B’voachem el haaretz When you come to the Land to which I am taking you,  realizing that most people who hear these words will never come to the Land, they can only learn and guide their children, who still have a chance, before it is too late, if they follow all commandments ... v’lo taturu…




When taken out of context the episode about stoning the man who went to gather wood on Shabbat is a stark example of fanaticism and cruelty – was it really that bad, he just went out to gather wood, he did not kill, did not embarrass or abuse anyone, did not steal anything, from the point of ‘just being a good person’ he’s done nothing outrageously harmful.  But it matters when it happened – after the great prophet begged God to forgive the people, invoking the divine attributes of mercy, after the people were condemned to wander forty years and die in the wilderness, when their only hope in life is for the children to enter the promised Land, the only place where they may find happiness is the World to Come, when they are left alive only by Hashem’s great mercy. 

Allegorically, if we were to compare the nation of Israel to the human soul (in a reversal of allegory in Shir haShirim), the man who went out to gather wood is part of the human personality that just does not get it.  No matter how harmful, it just has to have another bite of that cake, another cigarette, another hour of mindless TV-viewing, another chance to indulge in a fantasy, another adventure.  The part of the human mind that would use the most sacred kind of human bond, most holy of all emotions given to the man for its pleasure and entertainment. 

The concluding paragraph of the sidra is a warning not to repeat the sin of spies, do not look back, do not think of going back to Mizraim, do not listen to the false report of your heart and eyes, look forward and see the light. 


When you come to the Land - will it ever happen, will I ever merit such honor - just keep Shabbat and bake challah.

1 comment:

  1. Another interpretation of the commandment lo taturu has to do with mindfulness in terms of control over one’s tongue. I often catch myself blabbering uncontrollably like a sixteen year old in response to a friendly smile. Whenever my heart warms up it loosens my tongue, with the dire consequences of saying sarcastic words I’d never say in a more controlled state of mind. If anything could remind me to speak gently and seriously!

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